Sooooooooo..................... How's about I just saw the dumbest thing ever just a minute ago.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Friday, May 20, 2011
Yesness
So, how's about I've just had the best two days ever?
Well, almost.
My bosses were off the island these past two days, so I had the office to myself. Can you say freedom? And its not even like I did anything. I played a few games of solitaire on my lunch break, scanned and printed some stuff I needed for a government application I want to hand in, and breathed free, untainted, un-suppressive air for two whole frickin' days.
Life was good.
In the meantime, I've not managed to get much work done. My manuscript is giving me the heebejeebies, and my music is just not being very nice to me. Actually, I think its my confidence thats the problem. Last week I was feeling on top of the world, even though work made me feel like I should throw myself off the nearest bridge. I was full of good mojo aimed at myself and determination to get this thing right, even if it killed me. But recently I've hit some kind of rut where all my creative work is just blah to me and nothing looks right and nothing I ever do will ever be good enough for anything and I'm better off giving up and crawling under a rock and dying.
Yes, that has been my state of mind lately.
Which is sad, because I really want to make a living singing and writing songs and writing books and being generally productive....and this abysmal mood is killer on my muse.
Here's hoping for better feelings tomorrow!
Well, almost.
My bosses were off the island these past two days, so I had the office to myself. Can you say freedom? And its not even like I did anything. I played a few games of solitaire on my lunch break, scanned and printed some stuff I needed for a government application I want to hand in, and breathed free, untainted, un-suppressive air for two whole frickin' days.
Life was good.
In the meantime, I've not managed to get much work done. My manuscript is giving me the heebejeebies, and my music is just not being very nice to me. Actually, I think its my confidence thats the problem. Last week I was feeling on top of the world, even though work made me feel like I should throw myself off the nearest bridge. I was full of good mojo aimed at myself and determination to get this thing right, even if it killed me. But recently I've hit some kind of rut where all my creative work is just blah to me and nothing looks right and nothing I ever do will ever be good enough for anything and I'm better off giving up and crawling under a rock and dying.
Yes, that has been my state of mind lately.
Which is sad, because I really want to make a living singing and writing songs and writing books and being generally productive....and this abysmal mood is killer on my muse.
Here's hoping for better feelings tomorrow!
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